Letter to dad

I got this from my friend Irma. I wished I had done this to my dad upon asking him to sign my report card those days. In my previous post, I did mention that signing report card is like sending internal memo in the house. As dad was a very busy man, I usually left the report card on his dressing table with a very long memo explaining reasons why I got D for Maths and scored the rest. And he will reply back with a very short note : Usaha lagi! Sometimes if my letter is too pathetic, he will reply, don't worry, you are still my daughter, usaha tangga kejayaan. Bila terkenang balik, hmm.... made me smile.

Must read till the end…

A father passing by his teenage daughter's bedroom was astonished tosee the bed was nicely made and everything was neat and tidy. Then he sawan envelope propped up prominently on the centre of the pillow. It wasaddressed "Dad". With the worst premonition, he opened the envelopeand read the letter with trembling hands.......

Dear Dad,

It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you, but I'mleaving home. I had to elope with my new boyfriend Randy because I wanted toavoid a scene with Mom and you. I've been finding real happiness with Randyand he is so nice to me. I know when you meet him you'll like him too -even with all his piercing, tattoos, and motorcycle clothes. But it's not onlythe this happiness Dad, I'm pregnant and Randy said that he wants me tohave the kid and that we can be very happy together. Even though Randy ismuch older than me (anyway, 42 isn't so old these days, is it?), and has nomoney, really these things shouldn't stand in the way of our relationship,don't you agree?

Randy has a great CD collection; he already owns a trailer in thewoods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. It's true he has othergirlfriends as well but I know he'll be faithful to me in his ownway.

He wants to have many more children with me and that's now one of mydreams too.Randy taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone and he'llbe growing it for us and we'll trade it with our friends for all thecocaine we want. In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a curefor AIDS so Randy can get better; he sure deserves it!!

Don't worry Dad, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care ofmyself. Someday I'm sure we'll be back to visit so you can get toknow your grandchildren.

Your loving daughter,Rosie.

At the bottom of the page were the letters "PTO". Hands stilltrembling, and slight pain in the chest her father turned the sheet, and read:

PS: Dad, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbour'shouse. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than myreport card that's in my desk center drawer. Please sign it and callwhen it is safe for me to come home. I love you!

To my father : Thank you babah for your love, kindness and all the things you thought me in life (the hard & easy way). I know I am being rebel at a very wrong age, but I'll come back to the basics soon. You always thought me that, just need a bit more time, but I'll be fine.

kakteh's engagement pictures

Me and kakteh. We fight macam anjing and kucing. But somewhere deep down in our hearts, we love each other so much.

This is kakteh, my sister, my only sister. Kecik-kecik dulu I selalu kidnap botol susu dia and kasi habis. Sebab dia tak suka sangat minum susu, minum siket aja. The rest masuk perut I. That is why I besar! hehehehe.

Babah, kakteh, mama and the hantaran from us.

My siblings. Emma, kakteh, adik, kaklin, ayong, and me.

Cousins and aunty Dah. From left : kak intan, amy, kakteh, amily, myself, kaklong shila, and aunty Dah in blue.

Tak tau la apa 3 beradik ni kelakar sangat gelak-gelak ni. Dah tak ingat. Ni time kaklin still pregnant. Now baby dah keluar. Sebelah tu, Emma, bakal adik ipar yang kuat menyakat saya!

My father's siblings : Babah (eldest), Makngah (second), Anjang (fourth), Busu(youngest), Maklang -in pink (third), kakteh (my sister), and Ateh (fifth)

The meminang process. Seen here in pix from left : busu, babah, uncle yusuf, paklong, tokcu (jurucakap for our family), epi and the groom's family. Epi ni bagus betul, selalu jadi vvip time meminang orang, hehehe. Hari tu time adik's engagement kat Simpang Pulai, dia sampai lewat, time baru lepas meminang and nak makan, mentang-mentang pakai segak baju melayu, terus mama hantar dia duduk vvip table. Kita semua kena duduk khemah biasa ja, kan kaklong? Tak aci sungguh! Hehehe

Babah showing to uncle yusuf and paklong the cincin.

The pelamin! Bertunang pun dah ada pelamin ini macam, kawin punya macam mana la tu?

Time ni gelak besar sebab ayong and adik dok buat lawak bodoh (diorang jeles sebab takleh masuk dalam gambar ni atas arahan photographer)

Babah (the eldest) with Busu (the youngest). Ni kalau letak my elder brother, ayong, with them, sure dapat kembar 3 tapi 3 generasi berbeza. Babah & busu share the same birthdate! Perangai pun sama. Tapi busu cool siket, dia masih muda, babah tu serious memanjang! Tapi anak2 semua manja dengan dia, cucu? itu kes terlebih manja!

Kakteh posing kat luar rumah nenek. My opah tengok gambar ni cakap macam heroin hindustan!

Kakteh with Hariz Danial and Nurin Arisya.

I tengah doa. Tapi dalam otak tu ligat fikir macam-macam.

Mama & me!

Azrin & kakteh.

Sarah, Sophia, Kakteh, Nadine, Yana, Dahlia. These girls kalau suruh posing, hmm.....

Kakteh! Senyum meleret habis dia hari tu.

Carrot cake yang mama made sure kitorang order and ambik. This cake is very delicious. Tapi kedai nak pegi tu seksa nya nak parking. Nowadays, kitorang order and bila nak ambik, telefon aja, nanti dia deliver to your car.

One of the hantaran, icing cake. Ni nani yang bagi. Semua orang bertunang, mesti dia bagi.

Nani, myself, Farah, and kaklong shila. Nani is our toksu's daughter. She took care of me, ayong, and kakteh when we were at Taiping. Dah besar-besar ni pun kitorang masih manja dengan dia.

My mother's younger sister, Aunty Yot tengah khusyuk berdoa.

My younger brother, Azril (or adik to us), Epi (kaklong shila's husband), Bang Pol (my cousin). Adik muka benggali version gelap, bangpol version cerah!. Hehehe.

This is my soon to be sister in-law, Emma. My younger brother's fiance.

Kak Intan, Yana, Aunty Comel, Kakteh, Majlong, Aunty Yot and Nadira having a close look at the hantaran. Nadira is in Moscow, Russia now. This time balik teruk dia kena kerah by her mom (aunty Yot) to help around with my cousin (bangteh) and my sister's engagement. Thanks a lot adik. These are my cousin, Shah who is now working in Japan, and Amily who just returned home (for good) from UK.

The rest of the pix, kindly click here. Ada 500 pictures to browse.

my new toy has arrived!

Yeay, finally, my new toy has arrived! Airin Sofea binti Azwan Hadzree, weighed at 3kg, was born on 27th October 2007 at 1153pm. I spent 2 hours with her yesterday.

pix : kids.azwanhadzree.comhttp://kids.azwanhadzree.com/
(I tengah malas nak play with gadget this early morning, still sleeping actually!)

Nurin cried when I told her : "Makngah nak sayang sofea sekarang. Nurin nak sayang aunty emma seribu juta pun makngah tak kisah sebab makngah ada sofea!"
Huhu, merajuk, kalah time I merajuk. Hehehehe. Both ibu and baby are fine. Hari ni dah boleh keluar hospital. Will visit them again lepas I betul-betul baik demam.

I demam! On Saturday, memang duduk rumah, atas katil aja. Hari ni rasa lega sket, tapi batuk ada kahak pulak. Aiseyman. Cepat la baik demam.

raya at opah's house

my siblings, soon, the number will increase. ....... soon!

opah, her daughters, and her cucu.

opah Dah helping Nurin keeping her collections of duit raya in her handbag. I wonder how much the kids made this year. hmm.... I missed my duit raya collection!

mojo buat tak tau aja bila opah Dah asked for a kiss, he is concentrating on the duit raya!

opah with my uncles, my dad (in pink with songkok), my cousin epi, and my 2 brothers.

kak lin (the lady in green) is glowing during her last 4 weeks of preganancy. the adults are kakteh & me, the kids are kak long shila's adorable kids, nadine, sarah, and my favourite, sophia. the kids look lovely with their white kebaya and batik sarong, good job epi!

opah, her daughters, her great grand daughters. HER 3 GRAND DAUGTHERS are busy eating, that is why we are not in the pix!

from left : maklong, opah, mama.

atok ariffin, hariz danial, and nurin arisya. hariz senyum happy sebab baru lepas collect duit raya from all the opahs, uncles & aunties. : )

aunty yot and opah di pagi raya.

masak rendang malam raya at opah's house.

opah tengah inspection kitorang kemas rumah on malam raya.

Nurin Arisya binti Azwan Hadzree and myself on second day raya at maklang's house. This is my 2nd favourite raya pix this year!

Raya Updates

Huh, tahun ni raya sungguh memenat kan! Penat apa? Penat makan!

Today I dah stop makan segala rendang, kuah kacang, lemang and so on. Nasib baik tadi at my friend's house dia buat soto, so tibai itu sup saja. Cukup la 4 hari makan raya food. Besok I nak puasa la. Buat puasa sunat terus.

Malam raya semua sibuk kemas rumah opah. Aunty Da bought new tikar getah for living room bawah. Since my another aunty dah rearrange semua perabut, so we kemas accordingly. Babah jadi mandor, kakteh, adik, aunty yot, and apit yang kerah tenaga. Me? Sibuk-sibuk amik gambar orang tengah buat kerja. Hehehehe. Tapi lepas tu buat la kerja, kemas barang-barang, susun kuih and so on. Sempat lagi pergi rumah my aunties deliver barang-barang and kuih.

Pagi raya, after prayers semua serbu rumah opah. Opah dah ramai-ramai macam tu, ceria la muka dia. Agenda biasa, makan, then bersalam-salaman mintak maaf, the kids beratur collect duit raya. Untung la diorang tu, from parents dapat, atuks & opahs bagi, monyang bagi, aunties & uncles too. Komplen dapat siket jugak, tak tau la. Tahun ni again I dapat bagi duit raya to anak-anak buah, my parents, my siblings, my uncles & aunties, my elder cousins and both my grandma. Takde la banyak, saja seronok-seronok. I hope I can continue doing it in the future years. Kitorang amik gambar, riuh nya rasa sampai kat jalan depan rumah. Banyak betul camera nak amik gambar, and semua orang nak be in the picture. Hehehe. And this year cipta sejarah sebab aunty yot ada dengan kami pagi hari raya. Usually dia balik PD rumah ibu mertua malam raya, tapi sebab opah tak sihat, dia tunggu and raya with us the whole day. 2nd day raya baru dia balik PD. Lepas kitorang dah habis ceremony immediate family, my dad and siblings pergi rumah nenek pulak (my dad's mother's house) Me and mama stayed back to clean up and tak sampai 5 minit rumah tu senyap, tetamu dah start datang. The first to arrive is uncle Din (a good friend of my uncle). I always thought uncle Din ni my mother's cousin, sebab every year raya dia mesti tak miss punya datang rumah opah. Rupanya kawan baik my uncle, time bujang dulu memang selalu lepak rumah opah. Then atok Cu datang dengan his anak-cucu, aunty jah with her family, and so on. By the time I sampai rumah nenek dah noon. And after that pun dok ulang-alik between both houses bila ada sesape datang. Ye lah, dah lama tak jumpa, so time raya ni letih & penat tu belakang kira la.

At rumah nenek ada nasi ayam macam biasa. And bermacam jenis kuih. Cousins pun ramai. Sembang la banyak, catch up each other's updates. We had a new anak sedara. I called her Nurul dot..dot..dot.. Hehehehe. 1st day raya tu, umur dia baru 6 hari, baru sangat keluar hospital. I think by this time dah ada nama la tu. She is so tiny. Tak berani nak pegang, takut. Nanti la, dia dah besar sket baru la boleh dukung.

2nd day raya baru I jalan sakan. My dad and busu as usual, planning nak pergi sana-sini. We went to rumah my dad's sisters, his cousins, his aunties. After maghrib pergi Puchong rumah opah teh (mama's aunty). By the time balik rumah..... penat, terus tertido kat depan. Lepas mandi ingat nak tengok tv, tapi I lena terus kat couch.

3rd day raya still berjalan sana sini, mostly rumah my parents' cousins la. And by 6pm we were at Sg Buloh celebrate Nurin's 5th Birthday.

Semalam keluar beraya lewat sikit. Bawak mama pergi kedai cari barang-barang for adik's wedding coming soon. We saw some things that we like, bought some things too. Then we went to Shah Alam, rumah busu, and my father's old friend. Rumah uncle Zul ni every year wajib pergi. Kitorang pun dah macam his cucu. Apparently time my dad kawin, dia yang buat kenduri di Taiping for my parents. I suka pergi his house, check-out his books, rumah dia banyak interesting books (serious stuff type of books, the type yang I tak beli, but like to read at his house, hehehehe). After that kitorang beraya rumah Amy.

Kat situ dapat tau this 2 cousins of mine (Anny & Amily, eh , jap, diorang bukan actual cousins, they are cousins to my real cousins. Tapi kitorang close sebab time study dulu they like to lepak at my sister's place, and now I suka melepak at their place. Bak kata my taylor : ini sedara takde darah punya!) Anyway, back to these 2 girls (with another 2 cousins of theirs), on 2nd day raya, their car kena hijack dekat jalan gasing! Ada orang purposely langgar their car and then stop them, pull over and keluar bawak parang & besi. Ngeri ja dengar their story. Nasib baik takde apa-apa. Their cousin yang drover the car kena tarik out of the car. Tapi ada kereta pass by, so orang tu cabut lari. So to all of you, please be carefull, tak kisah la lelaki ka, perempuan ka, mesti alert sentiasa, kat rumah or luar rumah. My mom dengar story tu, mula la dia leter pasal I'm living alone by myself. Hmmm....

Hari ni, pegi satu rumah aja. Nak kasi perut rest. Besok nak pergi rumah another friend, then lepak at opah's house jaga opah. Jumaat Anny is getting engaged, so will be busy at her house. Sabtu pun kena jaga opah kejap, sebab kasi chance my aunty nak pergi beraya pulak. Sunday baru I resume my raya.

Pics nanti jap lagi I post!

Hari ni birthday Nurin

Hari ni Nurin is 5 years old! She is so excited this morning, semua orang pepagi dah tepon and wish dia. Me, babah, mama & kakteh pergi beraya rumah sedara mara, by 3pm Nurin tepon babah and asked : atok, pukul berapa nak datang bawak cake ni?

We arrived about 6pm at rumah ayong. Adik bawak cake, pak busu and family pun datang jugak. Atok abas & Wan jah pun ada, excited lagi-lagi la Nurin tu. Attention semua kat dia. She wore her lovely pink dress and her lip gloss. Happy dia bila kitorang nyanyi happy birthday. Nurin blow candle sekali hembus saja. We had fried mee, satay, ketupat palas and kuih. Maghrib kat sini. While I'm writing ni, the boys are upstairs playing ps2, kitorang yang adults kat bawah berborak pasal computer. I kidnap my brother's laptop and updating blog. Nurin ada kat bawah ni, all attention to her by her aunties and uncles, and atoks, seronok la dia.

Soon, lagi 4weeks, insyaAllah Nurin will get adik baru, baby girl, so nanti lepas ni attention akan ubah kat adik dia. Tapi to me, she will always be my darling Nurin.

Happy birthday Nurin! Thanks for being part of your makngah's life. You always make me smile and happy although Nurin selalu cakap makngah gemuk, and sayang aunty emma lebih.

Love, Makngah!